"Shake it Out!"

*by Florence + the Machine

"and its hard to dance with the devil on your back, so shake him off!"

Tomorrow is my last day here in California. And when I woke up today I felt so sick...I'm so nervous! Of course I'm excited for the prospect of meeting all the people I have already talked to here through our pretty blog, and those who I met through the Class of 2016 Facebook group. Not to mention that I'm excited to meet my roommate: she seems like a great person, someone I know I can get along with! Yet all of this excitement doesn't stop me from being so nervous that I wake up wanting a trash can....

Personally, I'm terrified of Wednesday.

Why? Because of the way I was brought up, the place I was brought up, Davidson is going to be a huge change for me. I'm so used to being surrounded by people of the same ethnic background, eating the same Mexican food, switching from English to Spanish randomly and be perfectly understood (by most haha). But I am not alone! A friend who I have known since 2nd grade is going to Davidson with me (or well he's there now, he did STRIDE) and he knows my feelings. Everyone from our high school kept telling us to be prepared for the culture shock, which we both have already experienced during our college trip through the East Coast (explained in another post). So I mean its not like we're going to see something that we haven't experienced before...but this is going to be for 3 and a half months!! The longest I've ever been away from my parents was two weeks for the college trip! I'm scared shit-less.

Doesn't mean that I'm not super excited through!!! Personally, I've always dreamed on what it would be like to decorate my dorm and such, which my roommate is waiting for me so we can do together (I'm telling you she's cool!) Everything I touch cannot stay plain. I've already had to stop myself from decorating my new phone with stickers from work. OH! which is something else I'm sad about...

I work here as a Ballet Teacher's Assistant teaching little girls from ages 3-7. The teacher has actually been my friend since I was about...12? I'm actually waiting on her as we speak to pick me up to go buy some dance clothes and ballet shoes <3. But anyways, I've been helping her for a couple of years now and of course I got attached to certain girls. But eventually they leave, and at this moment there is one girl I'm attached to: Ruby. She's sweet, tiny, and hardworking. But the only way she gets all the steps down is if I help her! Lucy (the teacher) doesn't have time to do 1-on-1 which is what I do, and I feel so sad leaving her! Today is the last day I'm going to see her, if she stops dancing before I come back at least. Hopefully she doesn't.

There are of course PLENTY of other reasons that I'm nervous and scared to leave like leaving my family behind, my friends, my boyfriend!, and my job, but I know I can totally do this! Cause OMG I made a huge accomplishment making it to Davidson, which to me triumphs over all of my fears. I worked my ass off for this, so I'm making the best of this!

*I'm probably going to talk about the pains of leaving my family and boyfriend....most likely while I'm waiting for my second flight on Wednesday. Yup, my flight is 7 hours because it makes a stop in Atlanta Georgia...