Damn it Sleep..

*Phillip Phillip's recently release album is currently played in the background.

So I have been feeling...out of it (for lack of a better term, or maybe laziness).

Davidson is a very harsh place to be. Don't get me wrong, I love it here and the people who I have become very close to are amazing. And those who I haven't talked to as much are still equally as amazing. Everyone is so helpful, so encouraging. But that doesn't stop some of us from feeling out of place.

Like for example, I have spent Saturday-Tuesday staying up doing homework, studying etc until 3am. And that's terrible for me! (I am going to be just rambling, therefore revealing many many things about myself which I'm sure you might not know..)
Why is this lack of sleep terrible? Because, I was an insomniac for most of my childhood. In short, I slept maximum about 8-10 hours a week from ages 10 till about 15. Around 16 I started taking medication and so it took about 2 years to stabilize my sleep to normality. And all I can say is F***K YOU Davidson for trying to keep your ranks in the Most Rigorous Colleges in the Nation list... Seriously what the fuck? (yes I didn't spell fuck in all caps because I felt that would be too much..)
Not only that, I had to spend Thanksgiving worrying about doing homework, without actually doing it until the Saturday night. Why wait? Because it was Thanksgiving BREAK. Why else?? Whatever, my research paper, review, and quizzes are over. Now I just have one more test tonight (German during my AT session at 7pm) to worry about and then a well deserved weekend-break.

But it won't even be a break. Because unlike many of the students here (or at least many that I have seen) I have to study constantly to retain knowledge. I wish I was like these students (and my brothers too, I don't know why I'm not like that, it SHOULD be genetic!) who could hear a lecture, and who learn right off the bat. As in, if they hear it they retain the knowledge. And reading something later just enforces it. I can't do that. I'll remember examples for things, but I won't remember the thing...I have to constantly study. And finals are coming...therefore I must study now. Blah!

But alas, I have work study in about 10 minutes, so I should probably make my bed (why would I make it before going to a review? I knew I'd need comfort afterwards!) and head out to Watson to go work for Mrs. Duncan. But mostly likely she won't have anything for me to do, so I'll go down to the lab and help out with research. Its still work, and I don't mind it. At least I'm getting good at hunting down research articles!

There is plenty more I would like to talk about, and perhaps I will do so more often. Or maybe even tonight. I have been making a habit of going down to the library to study (which really helps! I am giving it credit for the confidence which I am currently in possession of for my Psychology review) but I might break that tonight and write. Or skype my parents, I haven't in almost two weeks. And I haven't seen them face to face since August 22 not even at the crack of dawn, in my Maywood/Los Angeles home.
I need December 18th to come, I'll be going home that day <3.

Anyways bye bye for now world. Time to work!